Sunday, May 1, 2011

Treadmill after an absence

2.75 on the treadmill Friday night, in a sudden fit of guilt over my out-of-shapedness combined with absolute dread that I was seeing Joe the Muscle Man the next day.

Funny, though, how when I'm around him, I never really worry about my body. It's (usually, but not always) before and after that the paranoia over how much I out of shape I am and how I look takes over ...

Stupid paranoia.

So.

2.75 miles this week.
30.75 miles this month (final)
153.25 miles this year

846.75 miles remaining.

HOWEVER

*wimp alert*

I'm thinking of revising the challenge. Cutting it in half.

To 500 miles instead.

Because at this rate, that's all I'm going to get, and I refuse to spend the rest of the year beating myself up (mentally and physically) for not reaching this goal. I've got eight months left of this year, and I want to enjoy them and be (realistically) healthy and active in them. I don't want to spend them under a cloud of shame over not reaching what was already a high number at the beginning of the year.

I'll decide by the time I come back on Wednesday.

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